Friday, October 08, 2004
Self destruction
Last week, a young man from the institute died in a road accident while riding a motorcycle. I had known him to be reckless and others confirmed his motorcycle habits to be of the dangerous kind. He was returning from an outing to a nearby dam, when this happened.
I have seen the self destructive tendencies in such adventurers and have been wondering where they come from. They drive themselves crazy, go to the brink and pull back. Some drink themselves out. without the drive to self destruction, they cannot experience themselves perhaps. They feel special when others watch in awe and advice caution.
Can I experience myself in special situations only? I have enjoyed once the simple breeze in the morning, the hot sip of black tea and cool, clear water. Sometimes a puff of tobacco. Other times, the sunset. The pranks of small children. A simple talk with the friend. Also a climb in the mountains and a swim in the river. How is it that thrill arises in courting danger? Is it some kind of show of superiority? Retaliation against hostile rejections?
I have seen the self destructive tendencies in such adventurers and have been wondering where they come from. They drive themselves crazy, go to the brink and pull back. Some drink themselves out. without the drive to self destruction, they cannot experience themselves perhaps. They feel special when others watch in awe and advice caution.
Can I experience myself in special situations only? I have enjoyed once the simple breeze in the morning, the hot sip of black tea and cool, clear water. Sometimes a puff of tobacco. Other times, the sunset. The pranks of small children. A simple talk with the friend. Also a climb in the mountains and a swim in the river. How is it that thrill arises in courting danger? Is it some kind of show of superiority? Retaliation against hostile rejections?
# posted by Bhupatkar @ 5:00 AM 
